Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I know i am not into the whole age-play, but today i really feeling little. Just want to crawl into someone's lap and be held. No, i am not sad or depressed, just want to feel someone's arms around me and have them explore my body. ~sigh~

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Monday, April 11, 2011

I am feeling pretty good today. I feel centered and stronger today then i have in a long time. I am enjoying life again. I plan on staying in this frame of mind for a very long time.

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Saturday, April 9, 2011

Really missing daddy today. It has been 5 days since we got into our fight, last spoke and i feel so lost. No one to talk to, to tell my problems to, to tell me it will be OK, to just bring me out of this depression/sadness. I didn't think that his releasing me this time would bring so much pain. I thought i would be OK without him. I really need daddy in my life.

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Your Voice

I hear your deep voice in my sleep, I hear your words whispered to me, I feel you bringing me to the edge of an orgasm and wickedly you tell me not to cum yet. I hear you laugh softly at my whimpers and begging to cum and you saying “not yet, baby”. I deny myself of pleasure for you. I finally hear you say those magical words, "cum for me, baby" as I release myself, let myself go to please you. I no longer can cum without replaying that in my mind, yet you are not here to receive.

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Monday, April 4, 2011

Good news and bad news. My Daddy and i had gotten back together. With things even better than ever. He was still against the poly thing and the club, for reasons of not being able to keep me safe, but was willing to be with me just the same. Then today we discovered something about each other. Our different views of politics. Something that i was willing to over look and he wanted to throw us out with the bathwater. So it is officially over once again. I do not see us getting past this. I will miss him and it does hurt, i am not going to lie, but neither one of us is willing to change our views.

And the hits keep coming. I knew i read somewhere that i should stay in bed this week. Should have listened to that horoscope. Live and learn. ~sigh~

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