The Lies We Are Told

I no longer believe in love. It is a mythical emotion that does not exist. I'm sorry to say that it has taken me 48, almost 49, years before I finally gave up that fairy tale of love, being loved and loving someone. It is like happily ever after, another fairy tale. I might as well believe in Santa Claus or a genie in a bottle with the same results. It just doesn't happen. It is a falsehood that children's books and Hollywood movies portray instill in little girls brains to search for it and little boys learn to use it against us so they can use us and discard us in the same way they do a tissue. Just dangle the thought of love in front of a girl, lady, woman and she will spread her legs or kneel down willing in hopes of fulfilling her dreams. That word should be banned from books, movies and everyone's lips.

If I had a daughter, I would tell her from the beginning that there is no such thing as love. Let her know early in life not to believe in fairy tales, not to believe in men's lies. To stand proudly and strong alone in this world and never settle for anything or anyone. For her to stand on her own two feet and never lean on or count on a man. They will never be there when you really need them.

My heart, soul and body belong to me and me alone. No one else can touch it, possess it, or claim it anymore. Nor will I ever try to give it away again.

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Posted by baby

Huh. Realization

I'm not angry.  I'm not upset.  I'm not sad.  I'm not mad.  I'm not hurt. 

You know what I am? 

I am disappointed that you are exactly who they said you were.

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Posted by baby

Tests

Ok, I was pretty bored this morning and I took some spanking/BDSM tests at http://www.helloquizzy.com/tests.
Thought I would share my results.

The How Should You Be Spanked? Test

You scored 62 Naughty Over the Knee girl yyy
pain slut zzz Dirty Erotic Slut
You Bad Bad Girl!

The elegant spankability Test

The Winner!
You scored 78 elegance and 90 spankability!
An absolutely stunningly high score for spankability, matched with an equally stunning high score for elegance! You have won! Congratulations! You're cooler than the lovechild of, let's see, Bjork and Lord Byron, and more spankable than two dolphins leaning over a gate! Er, that last simile may need some explanation. You see, cetologists have established that a dolphin is essentially a buttock with a tail at one end and a beak at the other. That's why they so often travel in pairs. Scientific fact. But I should also clarify that the author of this test harbors no improper thoughts or desires concerning our ocean-going mammal friends. That would be lower than Gottlob Frick's voice, Aaron Spelling's brow and a televangelist's belly. I'm hot for similes, not cetacea. Just sayin'. So contact me if you like, you winner you, and I'll send you your prize: I believe it's a picture of a fluffy bunny.

The female submission Test

Total slave
You are 85 submissive and 75 into pain!
You are the dream of every master. Totally sub and willing to take at least some pain. Keep on!
 

The Spankophile Test

You are 85 % a Spankophile
Certified 100% Spanko
You are a true spanking fetishist. You truly love to give or receive a good spanking......or maybe both! You likely have been fascinated by spanking since a very early and began pursuing it with partners as soon as you could. You devote a significant amount of time to your favorite interest and you either are with a spanko partner or looking for one.

The How Spankable Are You Test

SPANK SLUT
You are 93% spankable!
You loved to be spanked, good and hard, with any available object. You will take it as hard as anyone is willing to give it. You are probably guilty of provoking your lover into spanking you, by flagrant misbehavior or verbal challenges. Hell, your ass is probably red right now. We wouldn't be surprised if you are standing at the keyboard, because it hurts to sit down.

The submissive type Test

Submitter
You scored 43% Humiliation, 71% Submissiveness, 50% Service, and 73% Pain!
You're the submitter, what you crave is the feeling of submission, to be in someone else's control, to feel used, you enjoy that feeling a lot you feel better when you're under someone's control, you can forget about your problems, and just be yourself.  You don't have a special need for your Dom to enjoy himself although in every relationship you probably want your partner to enjoy his/her time. It's just that it's not more important to you then your own enjoyment. you'll enjoy scening or long term relationships, but you won't enjoy serving someone, unless he orders you around a lot while you do :)  You can see by your scores of pain and humiliation whether you want those, from what i know most of your type will like either one of those a lot along with their submissive feeling, but of course the different types of submissives are many and I might be wrong, it might be just that feeling of relinquishing power to someone.

How hard of a spanking can you take? Quiz

The Hardest!!!
Wow! You are a pro spanko!! Good job! You're a model for spanko's everywhere!!! But seriously, you're a tough cookie!

The female sub spanking test Test

83 Variable #1

You need a spanking test

96% Pure! What a Spanko
You scored 96% pure. If you got over 10, you need a good spanking. If you
score under 10, then you need a strict spanking for being such a liar.

How many people didn't see that coming? 
~giggles~

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Posted by baby

Never Quit

I will not quit. I will not give in. I will not stop believing. I will hold onto hope until I see the writing on the wall and I haven't seen it, yet. All I see is signs all over telling me to hold on and keep the faith. That is all I can do right now and until then I will never give up and I will never go away.

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Posted by baby

Happy Thanksgiving

Wanting to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving to you and your families.

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Posted by baby

I Love You

I love you not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself,
but for what you are making of me.
I love you for the part of me that you bring out.

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A Quick Trip To Oz

Pay no intention to the man behind the curtain, he has no power anymore than the man in front of the curtain.  They are both just for show, nothing more.  Just a way to keep you holding onto something that isn't real.  Don't be fooled and never forget.

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